I could be loud man, I could be silent…

You’re up there in the heavens,
So far and out of reach,
And even though I feel for you,
I feel like a leech.

You may call it obsession,
Or love or want or need,
And whatever you will call it,
It will be agreed.

Because I know it is a weakness,
It haunts me every hour,
And though I try to forget you,
You’re still my perfect flower.

I know things have not been good,
And I am sure they won’t get better,
In fact I feel worse,
As I type each and every letter.

I can’t explain my feelings,
Time spent trying is not worthwhile,
The part that makes me feel worst,
Is I used to make you smile.

But you’re still gleaming away out there,
I know you’re something grand,
I want to build a spaceship,
To try to reach your hand.

I want to feel your touch again,
Your soft and lovely skin,
I feel so lost and distant,
I feel so lost within.

Nothing is as warm or good,
As feeling you by my side,
And every time I lie alone,
I feel like somethings died.

I think of you with others,
How happy you must be,
It really makes me disappointed,
In everything that’s me.

I keep on pushing you further,
And I don’t know what to do,
I’m scratching at the walls, screaming,
“Why don’t you love me too??”

Things did not start out so good,
And they will not end well either,
As much as I try to forget about you,
I cannot take a breather.

The most I’ve ever wanted someone,
And yet the most awkward its ever been,
The further away I push you,
My faith is wearing thin.

It used to be nights I shattered,
But now I daydream too,
Everything that I see,
Makes me think of you.

I sit beneath the sky at night,
And I wonder where you are,
But then I spot you looking down,
The most bright and beautiful star.

So I will build a spaceship,
Though I don’t know where to start,
And though I’ll never reach you,
You’ll be closer in my heart.

I don’t know how to build it,
And though it makes me sigh,
The thing I’ve learned through all this pain,
Is that you’re truly worth the try.